{Sequel to Before You Leave} ❝After I left, there was so many things that hit me and that I realized. One of those things was that I missed you.❞

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

"Are you insane or are you just that broken?" he whispered, his face inches from mine. "I'm a little bit of both," I admitted, looking into his eyes. "A trip into my mind would be a trip into a nightmare."

Dan Howell. He's gay. Decent grades. Nice brother who cares for him and he cares for. And that's kind've what got him into this mess. He'd always protect his brother, even if he got hurt doing it. Which he did when his father raped him. Phil Lester. Well he's Phil Lester. His mom died when he was younger by tripping down the stairs. But his dad is great. Let's him be homeschooled so he can focus on grades and get into a good college so he can have a great life. He's always got then newest stuff to keep him happy and entertained. He's got a perfect life. With some dark secrets. But what will happen when these two meet? And under the circumstances they do? They could find love or hatred. Either way it might not be the prettiest but their will be adventures involved --- TRIGGER WARNINGS - •Depression, self harm, homophobic slurs, rape and abuse. • I will put warnings at the beginning of every chapter as a warning. •Please don't read if these will trigger you. •I am going to eventually go back and put a description at the end of every chapter with trigger warnings.

"The less you care, the happier you are." He turned to face me, his blue eyes dull with traces of betrayal. "No. The less you care, the lonelier you are." - In a world where people have the ability to flip an emotions switch, many people lack feelings and sympathy in general- including Dan Howell after a tragedy strikes and he can't take it. However, he meets Phil Lester, the outgoing flirt with too big of a heart to handle. The two become close, and Dan soon realizes that even with his switch off, he can't deny that Phil is slowly reaching to turn it back on, and Dan can't seem to push his hand away.

Někdy i malá hádka přivodí nečekané problémy. A vztek se může stát zbraní hromadného ničení. Jestli to někdo zná až moc dobře, je to Dan Howell.

Dan a Phil jsou nejlepší kamarádi, co žijí společně v jednom bytě v Londýně. Co se ale stane, když už jim nebude stačit status kamaráda a budou chtít něco víc? Bude to ta nejhorší chyba, kterou kdy v životě udělají... a nebo zjistí, že k sobě vždy patřili? PS: Phil neumře ;)

Dan a Phil jsou dlouholetí kamarádi a žijí spolu v jednom bytě. Jenže Phil k Danovi cítí něco víc než kamarádství. Dan si ale bohužel najde přítelkyni Sarah. Bude Phil o Dana bojovat? Bude to vůbec mít cenu?

Dan Howell is a drug addict and the only way to see Phil is when he's high. Except Phil died two years ago, yet his family is worried for Dan's health.

just when the catipillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly × sequel to 'transgender' {HIGHEST RANKING #3}