A phanfic. Gender fluid!Dan Gender fluid!Phil Lots of Phan, a little KicktheStickz Warnings: dysphoria, angst Cover: -Drawing: http://sunnyaalisse.tumblr.com/post/134988790463/people-like-flower-crowns-because-they-are-pretty -Design: @_obscurefacade

**Trigger Warning: Self Harm, Abuse, Alcoholism** Dan Howell and Phil Lester never got along. Mostly because Dan took out his horrid home life on the people at school and Phil happened to be an easy target. But when things take a turn for the worse in both of their lives, they're forced to get to know each other better and discover things about themselves they never guessed.

Dan is forced into going to a summer camp in the country side of Britain, his mother feels Dan is irresponsible, and would only be getting drunk and fucking about if he stayed at home. WRITTEN 2013. (I have since, gone through and attempted to improve on it).

Dan finds that his dream comes true when he starts getting close to the boy he's been obsessing over since the age of 14

Phil falls in love with a secret admirer. Will it turn out to be the person of his dreams?

Dan's starting at a new school- again. Everything seems intimidating and confusing to him, that is until he's put with Phil Lester for a media project.

Phil is joining a new sixth form. He doesn't really expect to make any friends, let alone get a boyfriend. And then he meets Dan. Beautiful, funny Dan, who really couldn't be more perfect. The one problem being: Dan has a girlfriend. As their friendship goes on, Phil struggles to hide his secret love for Dan. But Dan has secrets of his own... Rated PG13 for swearing.