"I guess times change. People forget the promises they make. They move on with their lives, and start families, and wander down new career paths. I was never one of those people. I was never up for change. But Phil was." Dan Howell, a 26 year old protagonist and sometimes video blogger, lost his best friend Phil Lester, a 30 year old child at heart, to the ways of family and love. Phil adores spending time with 28 year old Milly Langdon and so decides on keeping it that way. Dan doesn't enjoy Milly's company so Phil decides it's best if he just moves on. Every day after that, Dan regrets ever opening his mouth. Will Phil ever realise what he truly left behind? (This is set in the future, that's why their ages aren't their real ages oh)

Part 1 Phil is the new boy to school. Dan is the loner who doesn't talk. After his new friends, Chris and Pj, convince him to talk to him, Phil finds himself fascinated with him. As they grow closer he learns that the silent boy has a lot more to him. Part 2 After high school Dan and Phil moved in together, growing closer than before. As Phil finds out more and more about Dan's horrible past he finds himself feeling something more... Does Dan? What are they going to do though when Dan finally breaks? Can Phil fix him? And after 5 years of asking of Phil asking 'talk to me' will he? A/N Part 1 is mostly an in-depth backstory if you want to skip, although it might not make sense then. It also contains no actual 'Phan'. It will be entirely Phils POV for part 1 and mostly Phil for part 2. This book was inspired by 'Speak Up Already' by Geniusotaku. This is my first fan fiction so constructive criticism is appreciated. Credit to whoever made the cover, idk who it was I just found it. Completed! Contains: Phan (duh), KickTheStickz, Troyler, minor Zalfie. WARNING!!!! This book will probably be VERY triggering!! CONTAINS: attempted suicide, triggering thoughts, boyxboy, anorexia, depression, anxiety, selective muteness, abuse.

In het jaar 2050 gaat er een vloek rond. Niet zomaar een vloek. Een gevaar. Je leven staat op het spel door 1 woord. 'Welk woord?' Een naam. 'Welke naam?' Die kan ik niet uitspreken. 'Waarom niet?' Dan sleept ze me mee naar de hel. 'Wie?' De naam... Op internet: Let op! spreek de naam "Neraka" niet hardop uit. Neraka, was een blond mooi meisje. Ze is ondertussen al overleden. De reden is niet bekend. Haar ouders werden gewaarschuwd. Met een brief: "hee lieve ouders. Met Neraka. Jullie krijgen spijt. Veel spijt." Meer stond er niet in de brief. Na de brief hebben Neraka's ouders de week niet meer gehaald. Men zegt dat ze vermoord zijn door Neraka. Na hun moord zijn er nog meer andere vermoord. Het enige wat die mensen met elkaar te maken hadden, is dat ze de naam van het meisje hardop hebben gezegd. Bij deze een waarschuwing.

Dallon is the newest member of Panic! At the Disco, but what will happen as he finds out the frontman Brendon has a secret crush on him? Shit will happen. That's what.

Dan: Junior. Tattoos. Pierced. Screamo. Bands. Skinny jeans. Eyeliner. Phil: Senior. Ties. Bow ties. Glasses. Straight A's. Button up shirts. How will they fit together from hating so strong?

There's only two things that Dan likes: 1) colors and 2) flowers And also 3) Phil Lester (Technically three things)

(danxphil) spy AU: Dan's an underage intelligence operative and he's on a mission. It's pretty routine; befriend the bad guy's kid, collect enough information for a conviction and beat some people up. Move on out and abandon the identity assumed. Things get complicated when Dan turns out to be a little too good at befriending Phil Lester. Sometimes good and evil isn't black and white, and Dan has to decide which lives he can allow himself to ruin. Badass!phan, warnings for violence, crime, guns, alcohol, smoking, drugs and any more will be added when i actually write it lol

"i'm counting down the days to go." or in which a boy who is waiting for his life to be over may be losing to cancer, but he also saved his best friend's life and, in return, won his heart.

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then Dan's parents decide he needs to love someone rather than himself, and when Phil shows up at his mansion steps, Dan's parents grow fond of him- so much that the two are exchanging rings and Phil is moving in with his new spouse. They tell Dan he should give it a few months, to be patient, and if he still doesn't like him then they'll sign the divorce papers and call it quits. Marriage isn't perfect, right? Well this one is the exact example. But they could always pretend.

"I think it's time you go somewhere else, Dan. Find yourself. Discover yourself and all that bullshit. Dan, I want you to find meaning in life. I want you to travel the world and see the things worth living for. Trust me" Dan Howell is stressed, depressed, and completely and utterly lost in life; and, yes, you guessed it: he is having an existential crisis. Because of this he decides to travel the world and not only does he discover himself again, he finds something worth living for: Phil Lester. • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • trigger warnings: mentions of suicide and depression ☆ cover art credit to hsiao ron cheng