A collection of notes, a public library, two teenagers, and zero spoken communication.

'Dear Caspar, I want you to know that I only did this because I love you..'

Joe Sugg, a famous youtuber who struggles with anxiety and a crush on THE Caspar Lee. Who trouble strikes in the Jaspar household, will they be able to pull through? -Some moments/characteristics mentioned in this book are NOT based on real life, sorry for the confusion:)

Caspar has loved Joe ever since he saw his first ThatcherJoe video. He even inspired him to make his own videos. Then, one day, he meets Joe at a YouTube party and his life is changed forever. Quite literally. He and Joe go on a roller coaster of emotions, awkward talks, awkward kind-of dates, coming out, and more. And just as things seem to be going well, a tragic event occurs and lives are once again changed. But this time, seemingly for the worse. possible triggers: Offensive language and self harm [i apologize for 12-year-old-me's writing but as i get older the writing gets better. promise.]