update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance //trigger warning// //dans pov// "do you love me phil ?" "maybe i do"

dan & phil tw; mentions of sensitive topics

I have spent so much time making this Phanfic into exactly what I would like from a Phanfic and I really hope that some other people can enjoy it as much as I have! It currently has no triggers so I hope you can all enjoy it! Happy reading

Phil is bullied by everyone, or so he thinks. Other fandoms in this fan fiction: fall out boy, muse... trigger warnings: depression, suicidal thoughts/ actions, self harm, bulimia, anorexia

Dan is a dancer, but it's his best kept secret. Moving to a new college results in new friends, new hobbies and a new outlook in life; but what does it really mean to be human? A series of strange and seemingly unconnected events unfold that all seem to link back to Dan's mysterious new boyfriend. etcetc phan with kickthestickz This story carries some warnings, however they're p much all spoilers except non-graphic violence and injury on one occasion, and non-described minor character death. No major character death and no self harm. Please message me if you think you'll need to know the TWs! To avoid spoilers, you can give me a list of things you don't want to read for whatever reason and I'll let you know if they're in the fic or not :)

**Trigger Warning: Self Harm, Abuse, Alcoholism** Dan Howell and Phil Lester never got along. Mostly because Dan took out his horrid home life on the people at school and Phil happened to be an easy target. But when things take a turn for the worse in both of their lives, they're forced to get to know each other better and discover things about themselves they never guessed.

"Don't leave me Phil" - Dan Howell is crazy. Plain crazy. When his parents send him to therapy camp. He sees things. Or more like he sees people. When he befriends a boy named Phil will Dan know the truth about him? Is Phil real? Or is he just another character in Dans messed up head? This is really short and sad so enjoy

SEQUEL TO ALIVE Phil's life is in shambles. A third year university student, he lives a less-than-extraordinary life: ignoring calls from his ex-best-friend, working in a local shop, and sleeping around to forget the one thing always on his mind: Dan Howell. TW: language, sexual content, drug mentions ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM PHIL'S POV

Dan Howell. A teenage boy with depression, self harm, and a very rare disease of butterfingers. Also has an obsession with llamas. Phil Lester. A teenage boy with eyes that could make the moon jealous, has an amazing talent for making people smile when they have gone through the roughest crap ever. Also has an obsession with house plants. Both of them? They love to make Youtube videos. Dan is all over the place. Phil is all in order. He helps any one that needs it. What happens when Dan meets Phil? Does a new relationship blossom? Can Phil fix Dan? But what if Phil has secrets of his own? Is this shell of his fake? READ TO FIND OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression + depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts + suicide -gay slurs + other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16