well look what i did! i made a book for the actual most amazing person in the world, spencer! ps: surprise!

This is something I wrote in the early hours of the morning. I don't know what to call it... it's not a poem, lyrics, or a story. I've never been able to break down my thoughts, let alone write them down. I've been scared to show this to anyone, especially anyone I know. So, I'm posting it on here. This is a form of what was screaming in my mind, driving me insane. Resulting in my body going on autopilot, finding a pen and paper, writing until my hand ached. ..::TRIGGER WARNINGS::.. anxiety attacks panic attacks mentions of self harm and suicide just be cautious when reading this. and I'm sorry if it's shit.

when ya squad is lit