Nicola Castillejos has been in love with her brother's bestfriend, Malachi Zhang since she was six years old. He was her muse. Her only love. Her world revolved around him and when he left? It stopped spinning. They made a pact of saving all their firsts for each other and she kept her promise despite the oceans that separated them and the years that were stolen from them. However, with Nicola's dissipating hope and Kai's secrets, it was only a matter of time they will have to let each other go. Or will they? ‼️THIS BOOK IS WRITTEN IN TAGALOG-ENGLISH‼️ ------------------------------------------------------- This is a fast-paced story and is NOT for the slow-burn romance girlies. This a romance book with dark themes and unconventional characters. Mentions of mental health and self-harm. This is not for the faint of heart. Read at your own risk. Tropes: Childhood sweethearts romance Second chance romance Angst No cheating Virgin FMC and MMC Morally grey MMC Started: May 2024 Completed: August 2024

When you get caught in a dangerous game, you will never be the same again. Joy Madrid is a beautiful woman suffering from major depression because of a relationship gone wrong. Mahal pa rin niya si James at kahit na ipinagpalit na siya nito sa ibang babae ay parang nakapagkit pa rin sa isip, puso at katawan niya ang mga marka ng binata. Mga marking nagdudulot sa kaniya ng trauma. Si Dr. Martin na siyang pinakamagaling na psychiatrist sa bansa ang tumanggap kay Joy bilang pasyente. He's a handsome man in his late twenties. Mukhang masungit pero may malambot talagang puso. Little by little, the layers of James and Joy's relationship are unraveled to Martin - the violence, the passionate lovemaking, the drama, and he vowed to cure her from it using exposure therapy. Pero pareho nilang hindi inaasahan na habang isinasabuhay nila ang mga erotikong pantasya ni Joy ay magkakaroon sila ng kakaibang koneksiyon; ng intimacy na hindi nila naramdaman sa piling ng kahit na sino. Hanggang sa hindi na nila alam kung treatment pa rin ba ang ginagawa nila o isa ng affair. Kung kailan okay na ulit si Joy ay saka naman niya nalaman ang isang bagay na inilihim sa kaniya ni Martin. Isa iyong rebelasyon na nagpayanig sa namamagitan sa kanila. Isang rebelasyon na naging dahilan kaya nabuo ang desisyon ni Joy na magpapabago sa kani-kanilang buhay.