Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

"the world isn't just black and white, you know." the year is 1994. philip lester has been brought up with the most religious of ideals, in a highly christian household. he attends church every sunday, says grace at the dinner table nightly, prays as often as possible, and wouldn't ever dream of disobeying his parents. that is, until, he meets dan howell, his polar opposite. -intentional lowercase-

"Once you start to care for someone is when you give them the power to hurt you" Troye Sivan has been in a previous abusive relationship, but when he decides to break away a whole new world is opened up to him. A world of fashion. Connor Franta is very popular and famous in the fashion industry, he is a hardworking and busy man, even though he comes across as a happy and put together well being... That's not exactly what he is. When Troye and Connor's worlds collide, it might just make up for their Past. ********* Well hello welcome to my new fanfiction, fare warning that if you are easily triggered I do not reccomend reading this and it will also contain smut, so don't say I never warned you and I hope you guys like it, updates are usually with in 3 days sometimes less. Xx

When Troye is admitted to a psychiatric ward following a suicide attempt, the only thing he wants is to get discharged as soon as possible. The last thing he expects to find is a friend, let alone anything more. If there's one thing he learns, it's to never judge a book by it's cover. And to never take life too seriously, or take anything for granted. [Some content may be triggering - trigger warnings will be included at the beginning of any chapters including this kind of content.] Highest Rank: #155

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?

just when the catipillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly × sequel to 'transgender' {HIGHEST RANKING #3}

Dan Howell is a timid boy, who always does as he is told. He was once friends with Phil Lester, the 'bad influence' who soon ditches Dan for the popular group in Year 7. After five years of not talking to each other, they're partnered in a project and Phil's wants to win Dan over just like he has with most of their year. But yet, Dan is determined to find out what Phil is hiding behind his arrogant mask.

nyctophilia ; an abnormal preference for darkness "we were fighting and there was a knife and i- i slit her throat. phil, i killed her." [first published: 25 december 2015 finished: 6 may 2016]