|Completed; Under Editing| 'All i know is that i can't breath, I feel like all the air is being sucked out of me. I worry that one day i wont be able to control myself and that will be the end.' BoyxBoy If your homophobic then this is not a story for you ©JolinskyQuad

"Please stop! You're hurting me!" "Don't fight me, Luke, it'll just make it worse." Or in which Luke is being abused by a boy named Ryan and he feels helpless to do anything about it out of fear. He's sworn to silence but can Ashton save him? // tw for abuse, rape, self-harm, attempted suicide // {Fully Edited as of 18th Nov 2017 // 28 Published Parts} (Highest rank - #177 Fanfiction, #316 Teen Fiction) (3rd place in Up and Coming - Lashton Awards) cover template © lottesgraphics pictures © cHae

Book three of the disorder series X anxiety [ang-zahy-i-tee] noun, plural anxieties. 1. distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune X I don't like people.

Book one of the disorder series X anorexia [an-uh-rek-see-uh] noun 1. loss of appetite and inability to eat. X That's one way to put it

Book two of the disorder series X depression [dih-presh-uh n] Noun 1. Psychiatry. a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. X Definitions

"she is nothing but her disorder." (trigger warning) ... poetry # 174

M., a college sophomore, is haunted by the events of a year ago that ended another girl's life. In an attempt to clear her conscience, she writes her confession down in a battered notebook addressed to a stranger. This search for redemption is far more painful than she ever imagined, and she struggles to cope with her grief and guilt. As M. spirals deeper into herself, she must ask what the cost of absolution is...and if she's still willing to pay it. [ Wattpad featured story | cover by MayTijssen ]