{book one} anx·i·e·ty noun, distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune.

Chats between two boys during midnight. © 2014-2015, Hayley (lovelylittlelashton), All Rights Reserved

Ever since they were little, Ashton and Calum's families spend their summer inside the beach house around the corner. But this year, that house will only be occupied by two. A lot has changed as time flew by, but they are still expecting this vacation to be a memorable one. This meant trying new things, possible summer flings, and unexpected meetings.

Ashton has never been the happiest and has never thought highly of himself, but soon he learns being famous, while it can be great at times, has its down sides. He gets tremendous amounts of hate on a daily basis which certainly doesn't help his self-confidence. He finds himself with an eating disorder. All of this piled on top of having a crush on his friend and bandmate, Calum, whom he is convinced will never love him back. Will it be too much for Ashton? ***Trigger warning: depression, self harm, eating disorder***

"Do we have any rules, Cal?" "Just don't fall in love, Ash." © copyright - all rights reserved -lhemmingsdaily

a story in which calum applies to be the world's first ever male playboy bunny and ashton is the culprit who accepts him into the industry. {lowercase intended} * * * * * [warning: boyxboy, girly!calum, pining, explicit smut] © 2015 by emma (twinkcalum), all rights reserved.

calum hood is shy, and has a lot of anxiety. it impacts his daily-life, causing him embarrassment. one school-day, he has a panic attack in class, leading him into a spiral of "unwanted" events. was it real or was it all in my head michaelsthief 2014 ©