And my eyes flashed back and forth around the room, searching--desperately searching--for someone. But not just anyone. In fact, this was something all together different than anyone who knew me would expect. I, Avery Ella Martens, the shy, quiet, guarded girl, was searching for the boy of my dreams. And when my eyes landed up him, I took a deep breath, and for the first time in almost four years, I spoke louder than I had been. And the three words I screamed across the crowed room that mid-November day, were the three words that could change my life forever. I h a t e y o u.