this cold metal feels like home to me dan. trigger warning self harm and suicidal actions

Dan Howell secretly loves Phil Lester. Phil Lester secretly loves Dan Howell. Dan Howell is bullied. Phil Lester is best friends with Dan's bully. Dan Howell wants to die. Phil Lester is too afraid to stop him.

i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

dan put up walls that phil had already climbed over. © 2016 -oceanrising

dont reed if ur unda eiteeyn

'don't do that. don't act like you care. i might do something stupid, like open up to you.' {or the one where phil has a photographic memory and dan is telekinetic} STARTED - 11/12/16 COMPLETED - 16/02/17

Magic, illusion, love and destruction... Phil Lester came into this world like anyone else. However, he is far from normal. Born with intense magic powers, he has trained his entire life with a teacher to help him control himself so that he may live a normal and safe life without endangering himself or others. When he finally gets an opportunity to be on his own, Phil auditions for a magic and variety show in the city, where he meets the young proprietor Dan Howell. He is hired on the spot for his outstanding skill. Dan becomes intrigued by the talent of this new magician, but as he gets closer with him, he begins to think... Is it really all just an illusion? (Triggers: graphic injuries, bodily cuts and flesh wounds (not self harm), blood, physical abuse, mild verbal and emotional abuse, mild angst, mentions of death) (credits to @chemicalcrybaby for the outstanding cover!!)

[COMPLETE] Dan sends anonymous texts to his bully, Phil. Bad decisions lead to unrefined, sloppy, disgusting love. warnings; -panic attacks -hurt/comfort -self harm -eating disorder

*contains brief mentions of self-harm* They say that love has no boundaries but what if one of them can't remember who they love? Phil suffers from memory loss in which he can't remember the previous day or his relationship with the love of his life, Dan. Update 01/23/2017: Holy shit, I haven't been on in almost a year. Can't believe that there are 20k reads. I am in awe! Unfortunately, I haven't been involved in the phandom for quite some time. I will probably not write a sequel, but if anyone else wants to.. idk go for it fam

I saw a boy today. His names called Phil. I wanted to become friends with him. So I did. Enjoy <3