"If you could kill yourself right now, would you?" I asked. He shook his head. "No," he said, "because suicide means that you've given up on yourself. And I'm not gonna do that." Isobel cut herself once, just see if it would take the pain away. When her best friend dies, her whole world comes crashing down. While reaching for a razor, she searches for her reason to live. Upon making a new friend, she learns the true value and meaning of what it means to truly be alive.

My thoughts

"It's hard to keep a secret when it's all over your body". Just a quote book about selfharm, suicide and depression. Trust me guys it's hard i am dealing with this shit to, and i am here if you want to talk!

su·i·cide; ˈso͞oiˌsīd/ [noun] 1. the action of killing oneself intentionally. 2. intentionally kill oneself. a story of a senior high school student faking her own death to reach out to other students. © 2014 by pariahs. All Rights Reserved cover by: -polaroids- Other # 23 / Teen Fiction # 107

Ellen Dodson is not your average high school girl. She has depression and no friends. When Ellen was younger her father cheated with a next door neighbor leaving Ellen, her sister Natalie, and her mother Linda to fend for themselves. Linda is a alcoholic and Natalie cant stand the sight of Ellen, so together they make her life a living hell. Until one day Ellen gets a makeover and everything in her life changes. She suddenly has friends, a boyfriend, and a loving sister. But what if all of this newfound glory made Ellen forget who she use to be. Who she really was. Letting popularity and peer pressure get to her, Ellen becomes a monster and doesnt know how to be stopped, until a ex boyfriend finds a way to remind her who she use to be.

Her mother is embarrassed of her. Her father doesn't care about her. The rest of her family thinks she's a bad influence on the little ones. Society thinks she's a freak. She gets bullied at school for what she wears and listening to the wrong kind of music. Out of all this her best friend still thinks she's perfect, inside and out. She wants to get away from all the judgmental eyes and she's knows the perfect way. Suicide. She'll never commit it and leave him to defend for himself even though he says he'll be fine. But once she gets pushed over the edge, she goes as far as faking her suicide, with the help of her best friend. Jess and Ronnie have finally escaped judgmental Ohio and eloped to Rhode Island. What will they discover with their new found freedom? *Revising* DO NOT READ THIS OMG THIS IS THE MOST DISGUSTING WRITING I HAVE EVER DONE YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

"I'm gunna paint a picture; it's a picture with a twist. The paintbrush is a razor and the canvas is my wrist." ~Unknown Poetry about suicide, the cover says "Love is like heaven, but it hurts like hell."