He said he loves me. Shawn actually said the words I've never wanted anything more in my life, yet for some reason...it doesn't feel right. Is it because he said it when I was falling apart? Or because it was only in response to me pathetically bringing up how I feel again? I don't want pity-love. I want love that's like exploding fireworks. I want love that doesn't leave me with doubts. I want love that inspires songs. I need to be loved for who I am, not because he misses me or is lonely. I want it to be easy, not so painfully hard. I don't want to feel like he's settling for me after having lost the person he truly loves. Mostly I want him to love me more than he's loved anyone else, and I know that's not possible. Highest Wattpad rankings: #1 in #shawnmendes 5/10/22 #1 in #mendes 4/4/22 #1 in #shawn 5/12/22 #1 in all three at the same time 6/5/22

|Prequel to Devoted S.M| Falling inlove for the first time...

[Completed] "Don't act like I'm some fucking messed up psycho when all I did was love you" Shawn scowled as he neared his face towards mine so his words were fresh in my mind. "Then why did you do all this?" I whispered as I gestured over to everything he had left on the floor. Looking back at him the anger in his eyes faded into shame and utter heartache. "That doesn't mean I don't love you" he sighed as he backed up and placed his hands in his pockets. #15 Mendes - April 2020 #11 Shawn Mendes - December 2018 #10 Shawn - December 2018 #4 Mendes Army - December 2018 #14 Canada - May 2018 #1 Love Affair - May 2018 #1 Toronto - July 2018

[Completed] "How can I ever love you when I don't even know who you are?" Shawn asked, his voice quiet as he pulled his shaky hand out of mine. "Because you were inlove with me once and I know you too well to know that you can fall for me all over again" I said softly, my eyes burning with tears. "I'm devoted to you Shawn, and I promise to never give up on us" #2 Mendes Army - May 2020 #2 Shawn - April 2020

-Y por todo ese cariño que te tenemos, Shawn -dijo mi padre, radiante con su traje negro que fue especialmente hecho para la ocasión- queremos que formes oficialmente parte de esta familia. Así que este es nuestro regalo de cumpleaños, la mano de nuestra querida hija ________

"It's fake, what could go wrong?" You'd be surprised. - Story has his and her point of views. || Highest ranking: Under FanFiction #19 Under 'Shawn Mendes' #12

When it was myself and thirty other students, he was Mr. Mendes. When it was just him and I, he was Shawn.