For over four years the boys had made a horrible error. They hadn't known honestly, hadn't given it that much thought. Now however, Zayn is gone and Harry, Liam and Louis are starting to realize what they've done.

Niall always received hate nothing new, all the boys did, but the difference was the boys could ignore it, all except niall who was addicted to reading every comment , Niall begins to notice that "Fat" is the recurring word in almost every tweet, so niall does the only thing he can think of, someone calls you fat, so you stop eating.

I'll never forget that day. That day the doctor told me, I, Niall Horan, had cancer. Cancer. That awful, deadly disease that we all pray we never have to live with. I had it. It was there. Living, growing inside me like a weed. Tearing me apart, sucking the life out of me, trying to destroy me mentally and physically, trying to kill me from the inside out. Somehow I got it. Somehow my nearly perfect life was suddenly turned upside down. This is my life now. I'm just a shell of a person riddled with cancer being suffocated by doctors. All I can do now is try and be one of the few that make it of the battle between life and death alive. *this book contains mild language that may not be appropriate for all audiences* ~*~ "This fic is awesome I love all of it, like we're on the 27 chapter an it's as exciting or even more than the first one it never loses the drama and it's a different love story, brotherly love that makes it special!" ~@Horan3044 "I've cried so much throughout this book" ~@daddynhoran "You've successfully made me cry, well done" ~@Abistringer1 "I've become addicted to your books!" ~@magconando2I "WHHHHHHHY It's so good but so sad!" ~NicoleRankin1 "OMG I literally am crying a fooking river right now. HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME!!!!!" ~@LarryStylionson9491 "Haha at the start I was a teary mess and at the end I was laughing really hard! Great job" ~@Horan3044 Can't get enough of my books? Follow me on Instagram & Twitter for bonus chapters and unpublished scenes from my books @NiallsJournalWatty & @NiallsJournall Este libro está disponible en español en la cuenta de @Horan3044 !!!

Dealing with everything life has thrown at him, Niall has developed depression and things are spiraling out of control. He makes sure to cover everything up, so the lads don't suspect a thing. But what they don't know is that Niall needs serious help, and soon.

"What's Wrong Niall?" Is all I hear these days. All they get in response is "Nothing, everything's fine. I'm fine." But in reality nothing is fine. Most of one direction's fans know me as 'the ugly one' or 'the unwanted one.' I can say I got used to it, but every time I read a comment like that my heart drops. But I pretend everything's okay. It's quite easy to fake a smile, if you've been doing it for a while now.

Sometimes our lives change when we least expect them to. We meet our best friends in when we're unprepared to make friends. Our lives change so drastically we're not sure If we want to look back! I for one know exactly how that feels. Because my far from great life became great in a matter of months. Now I, Niall Horan, have the family and friends I never thought I could have. Because of one horribly wonderful place. London's Teen Rehabilitation Center is where my life began ~*~ Niall is just a 17 year old kid who's life has been far from great. Suffering from mental issues due to his absent abusive parents, post traumatic stress disorder, depression, emotional trauma, and so much more Niall has turned into a bitter, sad, angry teen who needs help desperately but doesn't realize it himself. Forced into a "teen rehabilitation center" Niall slowly starts to pick up the shattered pieces of his life and put them back together but not without a few bumps in the road. Scratch that. A LOT of bumps »Trigger Warning« •talk of rape, child abuse, self harm,suicide• Este libro está disponible en español en @Horan3044 cuenta !!! Can't get enough of my books? Follow me on Instagram & Twitter for bonus chapters and unpublished scenes from my books @NiallsJournalWatty &NiallsJournall

Niall Horan has some problems. He fakes smiles all day, then cries himself to sleep at night. He has secrets. Terrible secrets. He doesn't want to be this way anymore. But he's already too far in. He's already lost himself. But the question is, will he ever be able to find himself again? **Warning** Contains all types of triggers. Boyxboy

Niall's a normal, famous lad. He has everything. But what everybody around him don't know, is that inside his head, everything is crashing down. Will he recover, or will there be a funeral?