How many times has it happened to you that you want to tell something to some one but every time you try you get 2nd thoughts and you chicken out for example when you try to tell your parents the truth but you know they will get angry and that scares the shit out of you or maybe when you try to tell your crush you like them but you think they'll never talk to you think your a big creep... Every one has tried to tell their crushes how they feel about them yet failed miserably, that's kind off what happened to me. Well I'm Shafaq Syed, I live in Bradford, yes i am a muslim and my background is from Pakistan. Guess who happens to live next door .. The Zayn Malik .. He's not just my neighbor he is also happens to be my child hood besti and my first crush .... I tried to tell him a couple times but it was never meant to be and now as time passed every thing changed I mean that is the cycle of life right every thing keeps changing. I still like zayn but he hurt me really bad and now he is famous and now he probably doesn't even remember my name.