Collaboration with @lgbtmeredith Set in season four after Meredith finds out about Derek's kiss with his scrub nurse. Will they ever be able to repair the relationship they once had with outside forces destined to keep them apart. Angsty fic that delves into Meredith's thoughts of insecurity and Derek's fear of being strung along and hurt the way he was when he found his wife in bed with his best friend. CW // smut, language, nsfw, detailed sex scenes, alcohol

Meredith Grey is a young, sex craved surgeon with commitment issues and Derek Shepherd is a world class neurosurgeon with an adoptive father who's only life goal is getting his son married. What happens when they form an arrangement that gives both of them what they've been searching for, but doesn't go as planned? Background Information --------------- Meredith Grey: 25 Derek Shepherd: 30 Other characters: Amelia Shepherd, Richard Webber, Ellis Grey, Nathan Riggs, Rose, Cristina Yang, Alex Karev, April Kepner Warnings - smut, sex, mentions of drug abuse, possible illnesses and trauma, language, detailed sex scenes