Follow the journal entries in the life of a girl from age twelve to age fifteen. The awful ups and downs of her life caused her to become weak, and self harm. Eventually she tried to kill herself. She moves from place to place, hospital to hospital, just searching for an answer to find happiness and be normal for once. It won't be as easy as she thought.

Trevor Moran: He is a famous youtuber, known for doing apple store dances at a young age. He had a best friend and they were inseparable until the age of 9, he moved away and lost contact with her. Lowri Graceffa: She is the daughter of a famous youtuber, Joey Graceffa, He adopted her when she was 9 years old. She had a best friend, and in fact, he was her only friend, he moved away and she had nobody left. What will happen to these two teenagers? Will they find each other? Will they find love?

"You killed him!" "You watched me," "You hurt me!" "I didn't mean to and you know it!" Lowri Graceffa thought she knew her childhood best friend and boyfriend, Trevor Moran. But after watching him kill someone important in her life, she starts to rethink everything they've been through. Trevor does everything he can to convince Lowri that he still loves her. Will she believe him?