This is an TRUE account of my life as a little girl to womanhood who survived poverty, molestation and rape. This is a journey into finding myself, getting out of a self made hell and understanding the reasons why I was born. I used to be lost but I found myself along the way. Come share in my journey, suffering, happiness and finding love. This will open your eyes to the world.Please vote and fan. i have never written anything before so sorry if any grammar mistakes. This novel is Rated R, certain scenes are described in detail. Please let stop bullying and abuse. Please share and spread my story around so we can get people to know that they are not alone. if you have been abused, raped or bullied it's hard to deal with but always know you are not alone. As birth I was not wanted and in every stage of my life there has been hardship and suffering. Take a walk in my shoes and read this book. If you know someone who has been traumatized please talk to them and tell them it is OK, to talk about how they feel. Let try to heal people one step at a time. DON'T shut your fears up inside, they will always come out wrong. Read what I have been through and you will see the wrong ways to handling hate, hurt and pain. Thank you for reading this and I hope you enjoy my book.

Barbara is a 55 year old house wife, worn down with regular beatings by her bullying husband Wayne. Convinced she is about to get the sack from work, Barbara worries about her future, who will pay the mortgage ? Where will she and Wayne live if she looses their only form of income? A phone call from work brings unexpected news from abroad, is this the window of opportunity Barbara needs to change her life forever?