Poem Nov 20, 2015, 8:28 PM "Been Everyone's Girl,but Daddy's" (By Carmen Maria Ortiz) Been everyone's girl. but daddy's It's got me screwed up My soul comes to a halt, I feel the fault God help me take this pain I created My heart breaks, mourning a man I can't hate banging on the window pane"Daddy don't go away" A monster has sealed my fate Don't ask questions that I can't relate I've been everyone's girl, but Daddy's Don't feel sad for me, It was my destiny Smothered by shadows, the pain unbearable Screaming in parables If I hate you would it bring you back? So you can be the Dad I never had They tell me " it's not just reality' It's a fact Dad is never coming back" I'm screaming" I'm sorry", It's my fault" I became sick, isn't that a bitch I had a family and it was gone in a switch My world became a mess Things happen to me that I can't confess I take a deep breath, I wish for death I feel my heart pounding out of my chest Tears run down my face, my back is up against the wall No one to catch me when I fall Been Everyone's girl, but Daddy's Not enough pills to kill the pain Not enough alcohol in my veins A moments of weakness My heart on the mend. I venting to a friend The embarrassment I feel in the end Do you see me Daddy? Do you care? Did it break your heart to see the scars I bare? So forever I will walk this earth sadly Being everyone else's girl, but Daddy's