[COMPLETED] This journal belongs to: DAN If found: Don't look inside, ever. It's mine and Doctor Linder said so.

Dan used to be a submissive and now he's just a broken shell of a man. Warnings: past non-con and abuse || Cover made by phil-no-ouendan

What starts off as a simple day in the Lester and Howell house hold soon turns into something much worse, when Phil, goes missing. But when Dan finds out the real reasoning for his friends kidnapping will he be able to handle it emotionally and physically? Starts of horribly but gets better around chapters 8 and 10 **trigger warning* Abuse and such. Please stay safe.

It's not every day that you get kidnapped along with your best friend... Dan Howell is about to discover he's involved in the most sick, twisted game ever. One in which he must decide who gets the daily beatings out of him and his best friend Phil Lester. However, this sudden change in lifestyle brings new opportunities for the two lads; opportunities in which they couldn't have comprehended before they were taken. As more beatings are took each day, Dan finds out just how much Phil cares for him and just what he would do to save him. But will they both survive or will it all become too much?

in a world where your moods are visible above your head, displayed through pictures and icons, it's impossible to hide your true feelings. however dan howell seems to be lacking this. labelled as an emotionless freak, dan is outcasted because his moods are never visible. that is, until an endlessly happy boy named phil wonders why.