Dan Howell just wants to be friends with the extremely sweet and attractive boy that he's been fangirling over for years. But what happens when Phil Lester, the sweet and attractive guy, isn't as sweet as he seems?

"tired blue boy walks my way, holding a girl's hand, that basic bitch leaves finally, now i can steal her man" - trigger warnings: depression, physical and emotional abuse, excessive drinking, and suicidal thoughts other warnings: possible smut - based on melanie martinez's pacify her, all rights to her.

"well, what can i say sweater boy, you and i mix as well as those damn paints on my brushes and the colors in those sunsets you love so much."

Phan and Jaspar, normal, major YouTube ships but what happens in an alternate universe where the two ships cross ? Daspar ? Jhil ?!? Two ships trying to figure out true love Featuring: Dan Howell, Phil Lester, Joe Sugg, Caspar Lee, Zoë Sugg, Alfie Deyes, Marcus Butler, Niomi Smart, Jim Chapman, Tanya Burr, Troye Sivan, Tyler Oakley, Connor Franta, and Shane Dawson There is some Troyler and zalfie in this ;) *Reading key* Each chapter is 1 day and each chapter part is a part of that day Warning: There may be some triggers like self harm, eating disorders, abuse, etc. also there might be some swearing, ALSO THERE WILL BE SOME CHEESY PARTS SO IF YOU CRINGE WITH THOSE THEN IM SORRY, IF YOU KNOW YOU WON'T AGREE WITH THESE SHIPS THEN DON'T READ OR YOU'LL BE MAD