A young woman who was always the life of the party, quick to tell a joke, always smiling and happy, tragically dies at age 23. What her mother found after her death reflected a much different young woman, her poetry. Her words showed a young woman crying out to feel loved, wanted, beautiful and worthy. Struggling to accept herself as the wonderful, happy, beautiful young woman everyone else saw her as. Her words reflect the pain and torment she allowed another to cause her. It is her mother's most heart felt desire to reach even one young person struggling to accept themselves. To encourage them to open up and talk to someone, to know they are never alone, to know their feelings are validated. She also hopes to reach a mother that perhaps feels her daughter is perfect and completely in charge of her life, as mothers often do. After reading her poetry, hopefully it will facilitate conversation, confirm unconditional love and help to end words that a mother never hears. I am her mother and these are her words.

Two dead parents and a brother in the navy, I was practically on my own. I, Vanessa Harrison, am 19 years old and working two jobs to sustain myself while my brother Joseph is away. I couldn't afford to go to college so I started working right after high school. My friend Kathleen decided to have a night out and watch a basketball game. I thought it would be like all the other one's we've been to...I never thought I'd end up having my heart stolen just by one look at that majestic body.

***GirlXGirl Romance*** Living in New York you learn to keep up with the quick pace of the city, myself included. I was never the one to stop and smell the roses, but that was until I met her on that dull September afternoon. Her eyes were light and dark at the same time, as if a devil and an angel lived inside of her. Time itself had stopped, and since that day everything had changed, ever since I had crossed paths with Drew Wilder.

Rylee Gisslen is a girl that others crave to be around. she's confident, charasmatic, and cocky. She knows exactly what she does to those around her while choosing to ignore their emotional attachment to her. Autumn Miller, on the otherhand, is a quite girl who isnt sure of what she wants. She's driven and loving, always thinking of those around her. However, when they meet on the soccer field... Their worlds sprial out of control. It not only tests who they are as individuals but also it test how they treat those around them. With two totally different lives, can they look past their differences? 06/20/2019 - Please note, that I have decided to add a few more chapters to the end of this story. A sequel is being written as well.

They said it was perfect. No flaws. No room for failure. That's what I was born into: perfection. Our lives programmed for the success of our community, that's what I was told anyways. Until the day I realized that we were only pawn in their game of chess. Brain-washed, mindless, and controlled. That's why I did what I did. That's why I'm, imperfect.

"No, this isn't possible, I like boys." I thought to myself. I've had a boyfriend since I was twelve.. But why was she so tempting? I watched her hands as they traced my bare skin with her finger tips, the way her soft lips parted into a sly smile, "tell me you want me." She whispered in my ear, her warm breath tickling my neck, "tell me and I'm yours." I tried to resist, I really did. But I couldn't help it, she was so tempting, "I want you." I replied. Rated PG-13/ R for sexual content and drug use.