"Fat fat fat," Luke clawed at his body. "All I am, is fat." - Luke Hemmings is ugly. Luke Hemmings is fat. Luke Hemmings likes to puke. Luke Hemmings despised eating. Luke Hemmings is every negative comment made about him. Luke Hemmings is gay. Luke Hemmings is pretending. Luke Hemmings is damaged goods. Ashton Irwin is hot. Ashton Irwin is skinny. Ashton Irwin loves to eat. Ashton Irwin is smart. Ashton Irwin is amazing. Ashton Irwin is everything Luke needs. Ashton Irwin is gay. Ashton Irwin is pretending. Ashton Irwin is noticing. Ashton Irwin is falling in love.

"@Ashton5SOS is now following you" // in which a fan gets a follow from ashton and they start dming, obviously. // Book 1 in the Social Media Series.

❝Gue setia nunggu balasan dari lo, Mike❞ © shameiess 2014 a Calum Hood fanfiction [ book 1 ] [ check out the trailers ]

"Hey, Ash. You don't remember me. I'm your boyfriend, Luke. We're in a band, with our best mates, Calum and Michael. You... uh, well you're suicidal. That's what got you in here. You tried to kill yourself. But you don't remember that either, do you? Huh, the doctor says you might never remember these things. Ever. I miss the times where you were too shy to say,'I love you' unless I said it first. But, I guess, in a way, this is a good thing. I might have lost you, but now you don't remember what you hate about yourself. In itself, that's good. Now I don't have to see you hurting. But now, everybody has to see me hurting. I miss you so much, Ash, but I can't tell you that. It'd freak you out, and then, I'd have lost you for good. I'm just going to have to hold on to the slight possibility that you'll remember me to get myself through this, Ash, because, otherwise, I don't think I'll be able to handle this. I love you, Luke x." ~Please read the first book first 'You Don't Hear My Cries

Ashton's life has turned upside down. He's fallen in love with his best friend, and his depression's started up again, but now it's even worse than ever. Ashton becomes really good at hiding his feelings, but is hiding them really a good decision?

*Triggering* Ashton Irwin. The drummer for the band 5 Seconds of Summer. He is a closeted gay and plans to keep it that way. He has a crush on his best friend and fellow band mate Luke Hemmings. But Luke Hemmings is straight and has a beautiful girlfriend. Also nobody knows that Ashton hates himself and wants to die. He's slowly killing himself by self harm and anorexia. He's slowly wasting away and nobody notices. Will anybody be able to fix the broken boy before it's too late? *this story will be Ashton's POV unless I say so*

Luke and Ashton used to be best friends. They were inseparable. High school came and they faded apart. Two weeks into their freshman year, they stopped taking altogether. Yet every single night, they texted each other "goodnight." What happens when Ashton just can't handle it anymore? warnings: swearing, depression, suicidal thoughts/actions, self-harm.

❝I've never been as close to a boy as I have at this moment, nor have I with a man. A man that's Luke, a man that's my step-father. This was clear, but my head continued to tell me to forget the facts and give in to the pleasures I was feeling with Luke's fingers against me. "This is so wrong," He whispered under his breath, but refused to take his hand from between my thighs.❞ ©Narry-My-Storan 2015 || Bailey Luke Daddy Kink [cover by @sweet-lemonade]

5 Seconds of Summer & One Direction -crossover- Multiple Ships. warnings: triggering. anorexia, self-harm, depression, bullying, swearing. Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in this story. ~ "Want an oreo?" Who knew one sentence could change someone's life so much?