"And then I found out how hard it is to really change. Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in. I just wanted the numb inside me to leave, No matter how fucked you get, there's always hell when you come back down, The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had. There's glimpses of heaven in everything, In the friends that I have, the music I make, the love that I feel I just had to start again"