"Hearts are wild creatures, that’s why our ribs are cages"~Elalusz TRIGGER WARNING: description of minor, not self-induced injuries

What if you fall in love with one of your best friends and don't even accept that you're gay? This is what happens to Connor Franta. He always knew that he was different but when he started to develop feelings for one of his best friends, Troye Sivan, he tried to deny it. He tried to push those feelings away, he didn't want to be gay at least that's what he always said to himself. But what if his feelings become so strong that he can't just ignore them any longer. Will he ever be able to accept those feelings or will he always keep ignoring them? Will he talk about it or just keep bottling everything up that's going on in his life? What if all those feelings just get too much to handle? Will he break or finally accept them?

Troye Mellet is not popular. He's middle class in the teenage hierarchy and the head of the bitter kids. Cocky "populars" and superficial teens are his enemies, and high-school society his hell. But, behind the social ruse that is his hatred, there is a deep sadness. Loneliness; bottled and festering into complete misery. Connor Franta is popular, and he is weighed down by that label. He's the shyest one of his group, the vulnerable one, the easiest one to tease. Terrified of losing his "friends," even with their constant bullying, Connor's life is a whirlwind of anxiety. He's miserable, but the idea of sitting alone at lunch shakes him to his core. When a group of underdog teachers notice their unfortunate similarities, these seemingly polar opposites are brought together. Both boys find life-altering answers, love and comfort within a person they've been trained to hate. After all, since when did the truest kind of love care about status? TW: self-harm, eating disorders, talk of suicide, gun violence, smoking. (Nothing to the extent of a mature content filter)