*this story is very descriptive and may be considered triggering. Be in a safe frame of mind when reading* Thought wanderings of a depressed mess...No real rhyme or reason..insights about death, suicide, self injury, self hate,bullying, abuse. Allot of what if's, if only, maybe's...the emotional rollercoaster that goes with sexual abuse, physical abuse,.neglect, addictions, mental health issues, hospitalizations and family hatred. As mainly seen thru the eyes of Adalaine Marie(I am female!! trapped in a boys body) this is not just her story it's also her past. Adalaine, feels she is a horrid slut, garbage of no use to anyone but a quick fuck, a whore, not wanted by anyone but those who abused her so bad. *PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION AS THIS IS TRIGGERING AND GRAPHIC*

My first book was my hate...this will be my encouragement. Hopefully it will encourage others. Quotes, positive reinforcement, insights, favorites , some things that hopefully will make you go mmmm but in a positive way. I have a filthy mouth, speak in literal terms, don't sugar coat shit. This won't be mainly seen thru Adalaines Skyye eyes it will be a collective effort. ..like, don't like, we don't care that's your choice. If you do great!! if you don't ok. If you hate and want to leave descriptive comments that's fine too, your opinion still counts!! And thanks.