An unlikely tale of odd affection and baffling fondness between a pair of outcasts in a ramshackle orphanage comes to be plagued by tragedy when they move away to the green idleness of Scotland. Six years scuttle by, and all that was promised to remain simple is replaced by the ugly misfortune of dirty secrets, traumatic yesterdays and Phil Lester's forbidden feelings for Dan Howell.

Dan Howell never wanted dreams. Because dreams meant he met his soulmate, and meeting his soulmate meant dooming them to a terrible life of memories about his anxiety-ridden past. But when he literally bumps into the boy he was supposed to be perfect for, he may realise he's willing to put his fears behind him and let himself be loved. Sadly, it's never as easy as that. Shoutout to the beautiful and wonderful and all around amazing in every way @phanoutlet for literally over 50% of this story. Please go check her out, her book New to Me is my fave phan-fic ever <3

in which phil lester has a long flight and has to sit next to a boy named dan howell.

When Dan has to move away at the end of year 11, leaving his best friend Phil behind they promise to keep in touch the old fashioned way - through letters.

After a horrible relationship turns young millionaire Dan Howell off boys forever, he has no choice but to turn to machines for companionship. But once his PL-34071- or "Phil" as he is known- shows signs of free will, Dan realises he may have bought more than just a robot.

Summary: On softly lit nights Phil will kiss Dan and hold him tight. But that's only temporary. And Phil will leave Dan with words that feel like poison. (Or in which Dan is a writer, Phil is an artist and they're friends with benefits) Word Count: 13k Warnings: smut (blowjobs), mentions of cheating, swearing

"Stop," Harry whispered as the smaller man in front of him placed his soft delicate hands on either side of his head. Harry whimpered as he felt another body press his own. "Never..," there was a smirk in the older, shorter man's face, it made Harry's body tremble in delight. He knew it was wrong, he knew that if his family found out about this, they won't hesitate to lock him up. But he couldn't stop himself. Before he could drown himself in his own thoughts, the smaller man placed his chapped yet warm lips on Harry's. He moaned and visibly shivered causing the older man to chuckle. "L-Louis...," Harry moaned. Fuck! Weren't they supposed to be rivals?

Louis Tomlinson is your average stereotypical nerd. He likes to study and stay out of trouble - his only real sense of adventure being his role as team captain on his soccer team. There's one problem, though. Louis is openly gay and gets bullied for it on a daily basis. No one else knows, and he likes to keep it that way. Then, all of a sudden, his dad decides to marry the woman he loves, and she brings her teenage son, Harry, into his life. He's arrogant and cocky, and Louis wants nothing to do with him. But what will happen when Louis starts to recognize the undeniable attraction between the two. Will he be able to keep his morals or will he fall for his sexy, curly-haired stepbrother who might just possibly want to get in his pants too?

|| Philophobia. Its name comes from two Greek roots, "philo" meaning love and "phobia" meaning fear of. The fear of love. || "I think i was 9 or 10. And i would watch from the stairs and-and the concept of getting close to anyone...it petrifies me." "Why?" "Because I never want to be vulnerable." His voice became colder. "I never want to be taken advantage of." "Who says everyone will?" The man retaliated. "I like my own tent. I don't want people to come inside and mess everything up." "But what if someone climbed into your tent and cleaned it up for you?" He asked again." xx

Dan and Phil are children together, best friends from the offset. Even as they drift apart Phil's little lights stay with Dan and he carries the theory with him through into old age.