Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

When life's got you down, you're supposed to get back up. What if you stay down? *trigger fuccking warning* for ALL my fics, just don't read em, but this one especially, okay?

Short chapters (REALLY short)

PREVIOUSLY CALLED PASTEL AND PUNK Dan Howell and Phil Lester are best friends, Phil being respected due to him having a punk look, and Dan being looked down upon for his own pastel one. Dan begins to receive letters, though, in his locker. They start friendly but slowly get more flirty... and Dan doesn't mind. He wonders who it is though, and even starts to wonder a few things about himself too. Who keeps sending him this letters mysteriously signed "L", and are they really as nice as they sound? (Pastel Goth Dan and Punk Phil AU courtesy of llster on Tumblr)