sometimes, even the brightest ray of sunshine could use some help breaking through the darkness. in which pastel!dan paints phil's nails everyday, and everyday, phil scratches it off before he gets home in fear of his parents seeing it. TRIGGER WARNING : SUICIDAL CHARACTER & SUICIDE ATTEMPT FEATURED NOW AVAILABLE TO READ ON AO3--MY USER IS HELLBORN lowercase intentional started: november 15th 2016 finished:

'Oh God Phil, I know you've messed up in the past, but this time you've really done it.' Dan and Phil go to a restaurant one November evening to visit Dan's parents. It all seems like a pleasant evening, until Phil accidentally exposes his relationship with Dan, who knows his parents are severely homophobic. Mistakes are made, and Phil ends up in hospital. Dan, alone, waits for weeks for Phil to wake up from his coma state, until one day, he decides he can't wait any longer, so he tries to end his life to be with Phil, whom he thinks is dead. Phil wakes up, only to find Dan is not by his side, but on his way to a bridge over the Thames as he prepares to jump into the murky waters and take his own life. ( WARNINGS: swearing, a few TWs, anger and violence )

"because as you know all too well, my dear phil, i sometimes want you to just drop dead." "ah, but you see, the feeling is mutual, howell." |serialkiller!phil x depressed!dan| |lowercase intended|

"Phil, let's play a game called ouija. "

Dan and Phil's friendship has ended. They moved out from their flat and went their separate ways. Phil has tried to keep in touch with Dan, but he never answers. All of his emails are unanswered, but that doesn't mean Dan never reads them.

he fell through the glass and found something he never wanted to let go of. .｡.:*☆ © phntasia 2016

dan was shy; phil wanted to change that. d+p high school a.u., including bold!phil and shyartist!dan © 2015 -oceanrising

"goddamn right, you should be scared of me" {this fan fiction contains some very triggering topics}

"hey, asl?" [highest rank: #26]