❝Phil: I speak you language, Howell❞ Daniel James Howell just wanted to be loved. Philip Michael Lester just wanted someone to love. -X- Polaroid;《Phan》 Most of the story develops on snapchat. (Lowercase intended) -X- Written by: MisMostacho47 (me) Cover by: MisMostacho47 (me) Started: August 15th 2016 Finished: --/--/--

Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts with into seeing him as your average person. The isolation as he desperately tries to keep others from finding out, the bitterness that wells up inside of him each and every time he's reminded that he'll never be like everyone else, the fear that nothing will ever change. He's fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. Isolation can only go so far though, so when he's struggling to make ends meet and he's faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. It doesn't seem so easy ten failed roommates into the process, or when he sits down at a table to meet with prospect number eleven and ends up with a coffee spilled all over his lap. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he's been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in. Neither of them have any way of knowing just what they've gotten themselves into as they shake on the matter, but time will tell.

"We can't do this, it's a sin." "Well I'm a sinner." ::Christianboy!dan punkboy!phil)

"I have a dare for Phil, seduce Daniel Howell." "That f-boy? He's homophobic!" "We can't be sure until we try." (I literally started writing this sitting on the floor of my schools bathroom before school started) [tw: abuse]

[completed] philgon: she can fuck you good, but i can fuck you better ; copyright © 2016

"Calm down it's just a joke!" "Obviously I didn't find it funny considering I just slapped you." ; includes: swearing, american!phan, high school!phan

|| Philophobia. Its name comes from two Greek roots, "philo" meaning love and "phobia" meaning fear of. The fear of love. || "I think i was 9 or 10. And i would watch from the stairs and-and the concept of getting close to anyone...it petrifies me." "Why?" "Because I never want to be vulnerable." His voice became colder. "I never want to be taken advantage of." "Who says everyone will?" The man retaliated. "I like my own tent. I don't want people to come inside and mess everything up." "But what if someone climbed into your tent and cleaned it up for you?" He asked again." xx

Dan loves his job. The lights, the stage, the adoring crowd. But he has a rule: No kissing or sex at work. No feelings. Phil loves his flat. He avoids clubs, parties, and social gatherings with his roommate Pj. He's quiet and reserved. Unexpected events lead Dan and Phil right to each other, and each of their lives change drastically, for better or for worse. [[stripper!dan au, phan, boyxboy, nsfw smut in some chapters (I'll warn you beforehand)]]

" we're friends right? well, you can't really tell me otherwise anyway, which is probably why we're friends. " Or the story of an overenthusiastic boy called Phil, who has trouble shutting up, and a reluctantly mute boy called Dan, who's life is falling apart, and how they both come to realise that sometimes - actions can speak louder than words.