Were did i go wrong. What did i do to deserve this kind of life? am only a teenager whose 16. You expect me to be like an adult but yet you treat me like a kid. You tell me to grow up. Drag me into whats not mine but your problem, and put it on me. I get in trouble for not liking the cloths that your girl friend gets me. You put me down for me liking something that isn't your taste. You talk smack about the women who gave birth to me. You are not my mother and will never be my mother i already have one, Who i love very much with all my heart. You can never take that away from me. I dont care that you bought me this and that. That means nothing to me. What did i ever do to deserve this pain? I hate the way you treat me.I know you don't like my mom. What did she ever do to you that made you dislike her. Nothing. You get me in trouble, you cuss me out and try to get me hit. All you wanna do is get my ass beat because you are not allowed to hit me. I got slapped because i had a photo of my mother and my dads pic together on my phone. Which wasn't even my fault. I got hit because of YOU for a stupid photo that my PHONE decided to mix it up. Yet i still get hit over it. You are not a mother, your not even a mom your a girlfriend thats what you will always be. But a girlfriend. You will never know what its like to have your own kids, you will never know the feeling on how much it hurts to not see your kids only 2xs a month for 3 hours. You will never know the pain you cause me and my real mom. And most in far most, You will never be anything but my dads girlfriend. And yet i always get the shit at the end of the stick. Cause you have a problem with my mom. You taken away everything i loved that my mom gave me. Memories everything and you don't care all you care about is only keeping what you gave me. But you don't care what she gives me cause guess what your willing to just throw it out like its a piece of garbage, You know what your full of it !all you cause me is to hate

who am I ? am i a 16 year old girl , or am i a puppet? I'm so sick and tired of being who i am. Sometimes i just wish i wasn't even on this earth at all. I wish i was dead at one point. Wanting to take some pills and hope to never wake up again. They say God gives the hardest battles to those who can handle it they can fight their own battles, But i am not even a soldier to begin with. Im weak im a coward to admit and speak how i feel. You step all over me and what do i do i stay on the floor while you kick me with your hurtful words you throw at me. I cry myself to sleep every night hoping things would change, but they don't as i get older it worsens. Thinking about it makes me hurt and cry till nothing comes out anymore. I'm so FED up i hate being on this earth! My room is the only place i can go to for me to be safe. To hide in peace to cry in peace to think. I am not strong, i am weak mentally. I like to run away from my problems because i cant face them face to face. Someone wise told me that i'm like a little bunny. I hide and run away from those who try to harm me. But it just takes that one little push for them to corner me and as soon as they are ready to hurt me the bunny will stand up with all its might and strength to fight back, It just needs something big enough to corner it, to get out of its bad situation. I need that. But if it was a life and death situation i would probably be dead cause i couldn't have the courage to fight back with my words. I am not cut out for this my brain tells me one thing but my heart tells me another. I have a mother who believes in me, But it's sad cause i dont even belive in myself. I'm tired of being here. I just want to leave. But i cant cause im to scared to own up and stand up to what i believe in. Every time you hurt me it secretly hurts me.. you just never see the hurt i'm feeling, you think it's in the inside, but really its in the outside you just never cared to take a look at me. Your only paying attention you.