[COMPLETED] Messages Phil has never sent to Dan telling him what he really feels and how hurt and in love he is. Trigger warning *depression And Suicide attempt* Completed on 21st February 2016 ©dirtyjoseph 2016

Dan Howell secretly loves Phil Lester. Phil Lester secretly loves Dan Howell. Dan Howell is bullied. Phil Lester is best friends with Dan's bully. Dan Howell wants to die. Phil Lester is too afraid to stop him.

"I'm sorry..." (trigger warning)

he repeats the process; C O M P L E T E tw ; self-harm, suicide, depression, major character death you can not read this story AT ALL if you get triggered by those topics

13-year-old Iris has been living her life trapped in lonely foster homes. She's moved almost every month, due to being antisocial and distant towards the families. Nobody seems to understand the trauma she's dealing with; the memories of her biological family constantly haunting her. It's impossible for her to feel a sense of safety. She never feels at home. Although she does experience times of joy, it is quite rare for her to find any source of light in her life. But there are two YouTubers who manage to give her momentary happiness. And all it takes to get their attention is one letter. Just one letter, and suddenly Iris' life is where she never thought it would be; In the caring hands of Dan Howell (danisnotonfire) and Phil Lester (AmazingPhil). [A/N: There are some triggers, but overall this fanfiction isn't centered around those things. However, there is some swearing and sexual content. You've been warned!] *I am the queen of this plot so y'all better bow down to me*

Phil Lester is sweet and cute; known for his kindness and enthusiasm. Dan Howell is a tough, cold outsider; known as the school's stereotypical 'bad boy'. But if he's so bad, then why on earth did he rescue Phil Lester and give him a smile which would melt anyone's heart?

❝Remember that first time we hugged at the train station? I remember seeing your face light up and I hugged you for so long, I didn't want to let go because for once, I felt complete. But that was before you left.❞