I don't think it's exactly news to anyone that I keep journals. Pages out of some of my old ones adorn the walls at the Grammy Museum. What might surprise some people is that I usually have more than one at a time. One for song lyrics, one for what's going on in my life. What follows is an edited version of the one I kept in 2016 and the first part of 2017. Some things are still too private, too personal. Some you'll have to hear in songs. I never thought I'd write a memoir so young. At 27 I'd like to think I have a lot of life yet to experience. But after countless questions, I realized I'd rather put it all out there, for you to read on your own, rather than let the media interpret what I have to say. I've had enough of people twisting my words to last a lifetime.

- book two of wisteria hearts - Taylor Swift has sold out 60 concerts for her Lover world tour. It's been a long year and she's about to start another long year of stress, hard work and exhaustion. She's not scared of it this time, because she's going to have her best friend and lover beside her. He's promised he's going to be at every show and cheer for every song. She's out of the woods for the moment, but things change all the time, and when you're at the centre of a spotlight, people see everything. Even when you try to hide it. Taylor and Joe are closer than ever, they love each other to the moon and to Saturn, and they wouldn't change a thing that happened to them last year. But memories can haunt you - Taylor knows that better than anyone. - trigger warning for: eating disorders, sexual assault, self harm, abusive relationship -

Taylor Alison Swift. A Single Mother raising her kid alone. She was doing everything in her power to provide her kid a better future. Even if it meant dancing in the club in front of hungry Men and Women who wanted her for her flesh and for not what lies underneath it. A broken heart full of gold surrounded by the walls of cold hard stone. Taylor never let anyone enter her life or cared about anyone except her baby boy, Jace but it all changed when a curly brown haired Goof entered her life changing everything. The stone walls came tumbling down and the broken heart was uncovered, will Harry be able to fix the broken heart? Will he be able to numb all the pain from Taylor's past? Will he be able to love her and her baby like they deserve? Or Will Harry's past ruin everything? ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ ''Don't blame me.. '' Taylor whispered in the cold air which was surrounding her body like the ocean surrounding the sinking Titanic. There was no one to hear her broken whisper. No one. All her life she was blamed, for the deeds she never even did. For the crimes she never even committed. For the words she never even spoke. Once again, She was left alone in the dark, but the different was that this time it was her choice to be alone. She chose to get hurt. She chose to get hurt and to hurt, hurt the very person she loved. Hurt the very person who helped her fix up her broken heart. Who filled her and her baby's world with happiness that was beyond their reach. But all she could whisper was, ''Don't blame me.'' ¤¤¤¤¤¤ Cover Credit-- @MyBlindOptimism13

- book one of wisteria hearts (six books are published) - two souls don't just find each other by pure, sweet, simple accident. it's serendipity. Taylor Swift, some would say, was one of the biggest celebrities out there. It's funny, given this fact, how someone that has spent their entire life from sixteen, living under a spotlight, can be in an abusive relationship for three years, and no one notices. Not a single person. They don't see the hands that wander her body in the middle of the eternal night or the bruises on her cheeks from a blow that she didn't deserve. Not a single person saw her pain. Until she met Joe Alwyn, on a Wednesday, at a cafe. The whirlwind of memories from the Met Gala, when she'd first laid eyes on him, whilst in the arms of another. Those ocean eyes that had followed her around the dance floor, as he stood to the side. She didn't know that Joe remembered that moment when they'd first met. But he'd been watching - he couldn't stop watching. She was mesmerising. And she'd had that sparkle in her eyes, the first thing he'd noticed about her. But when he saw her in that cafe, that sparkle was nowhere to be seen, and a bruise had taken its place. They didn't know, then, that the Poets had written their love in the stars. - a Taylor Swift and Joe Alwyn au - This is set some time after reputation, after the Met Gala. A lot of songs mentioned may not be in the correct order (for example, writing a rough version of cardigan before lover has even been written) but is intentional. - trigger warning for: eating disorders, sexual assault, self harm, abusive relationships -

I run my fingers over my scars that still haven't faded away completely. "Someday everything will work out. I promise. But until then we have to stay strong." "But I can't loose you." "And you won't. You will just have to wait." He nods and we press out lips together for the last time for awhile. "I love you ok?" "I love you, too. And I don't care if I have to wait forever and a day I will get you back Taylor. Scars and all."

The first of a two-part series

[ Trilogy to "Enchanted" & "Things Fall Apart" ] ____________________________ Taylor's life is spiraling out of control. She's imagining things. She has nightmares. She hears voices. She has depression. It's all because of him. He scarred her tremendously. People say time heals everything. But does it really? Will Taylor and Harry ever have their happily ever after?

[ COMPLETED ] { Sequel to "Enchanted" } _____________________________ Harry and Taylor finally gets married. But just when Taylor thought her life was exactly what she wished for, it turns out to be the complete opposite... What happens when Harry gets addicted to alcohol, and Taylor finds out she's pregnant? What happens when someone from the past comes back to harm her? Will Harry come to his senses and protect his wife, or watch her get hurt?

Joe falls completely in love with Taylor despite her past and tries to stay by her side through the hardest few years of her life. Will he be able to hold on? THIS BOOK IS SO SO BAD!! MY NEWER BOOKS ARE MUCH BETTER WRITTEN 😂

🎶starry eyes sparking up my darkest nights🎶