"You're the type of person that is always good, will always love someone for who they are, doesn't care about looks, hasn't gotten in trouble, and will show you love... But I don't. You shouldn't be with someone like me, you deserve someone who is perfect, and not trouble." I tried fighting the tears but it was too late, they came like a tsunami. I turned my head and tried to hide myself but Niall grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. He placed his hand on my hair. I shoved him away right at he started to stoke my hair, not wanting to feel his touch or even anything involving him. Niall grabbed my hand, I quickly yanked it away and started to walk away. All of the memories came back to me. Niall and I kissing in the mall, Him and I in almost every twitter post after became public, Niall walking in on me cutting myself, the car accident, Niall giving me the ring. Don't think about that, don't think about those moments, you are a big girl. You don't need him, you never did. You can do better. You are independent. Fuck it yes you do! You need him more than anything in this universe and you know it. "I won't let him win!" Niall yelled at me. "He already has" I mumbled to myself as I looked down at the floor, and walked away wanting to not see Niall agian

We all need an escape, an unexpected miracle to solve the problems we have somehow created in our lives. Nevertheless, they can corrupt us, holding one captive to the point where they're unable leave, to free themselves from what's giving them freedom, to let go of something they've learned to depend on.. To subject to this ludicrous objective is normal. Believing we all have someone or something to make us feel safe out there is nothing out of the ordinary, yet I've found myself homebound, trapped in the hell my life has become . I have no escape.