~Just to cover things up, I did NOT make this book. All credit goes to Donna Cooner! ~ "Hello, Beauty Stars! I'm so sorry I haven't posted so long. I wanted to update you...." I stop recording, then watch the clip. The face reflected in the monitor is like a ghost. My eyes look so tired. And sad. The tears well up and spill silently down my cheeks. This isn't what my fans sign on to watch. They want me to tell them whether to buy a MAC 224 crease brush or MAC 217 blending brush for their Bobbi Brown eye shadow. My vlogs are always supposed to be confident, inspirational, and delightfully personal. Viewers know all about me. They want to be me. It's a big responsibility.