he was a blank canvas and words could flow out of him effortlessly, there was never a stutter or a stop. he was a sky of colour, a mess of words tumble out of his mouth, messy and faint. *this fanfic contains drinking, abuse, and mention(s) of suicide. if there are any specific trigger warnings, send a DM please!

Ethan tries to leave one life for another: probable death for a possible life. But what he leaves behind doesn't necessarily want to let him go. Shackles from the past bind his wrists while promises of a better life scare the hell out of him. How could someone possibly want him to be a part of their life and their family? What he thought was his chance for salvation, in the form of the firm roles of a BDSM relationship, proves to be a very different story altogether. Marc Matthews, a Dom at a local club, turns Ethan's life upside down without the help of a whip. While Matthews tugs at his heart, Ethan remains determined to raise the walls inside his chest to protect what is left of a hollow existence.

[completed] philgon: she can fuck you good, but i can fuck you better ; copyright © 2016

❝Whenever I'm around you, I act different.❞ Pastel!Phan stabithahowlter©

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4

This is the story of (y/n) a depressed girl suffering from suicidal thoughts,anxiety and depression, & one day accidentally falls in love with her hero. (Warning this story may have adult content and self harm if easily triggered do not read. )

Phil is an ordinary guy with an ordinary life. Nothing very special about him, he's just normal. But it all changes when, on the weirdest day of his life, he meets the very quiet and recluse, Dan Howell. He's different. Phil doesn't usually do different, but something about Dan makes him want to try it. But when he's pulled into a world he didn't even know existed, he doesn't know if his choice was such a smart one. Because, there's a reason Dan is different. And it might not be so good.

"Are you a virgin?" "Sir, is that appropriate?" ____

Book Two Continuation of Psychotic