" Phil Lester is on the edge of suicide. " or in which Dan can see everyone's deepest secret simply by looking at them.

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.

Phil is an orphan, bullied, and living alone with no friends in a home. He does his best not to let that fact that no one seems to care about him get to him, but it's getting harder. Then a nice couple start to take interest in him, and it turns out they have a son his age, Daniel, but the love they begin to share isn't of a brotherly nature...

i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

Deciding to play by his own rules, Dan embodies the dark part of his mind. Phil, wanting the best for him, tries to crawl inside his head to understand him... but Dan won't let him in so easily. *Inspired by Dan's video 'Psycho thoughts'.