i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

I imagine that this is sort of how they'll come out? Just a short cute thing I tried out

Dan Howell secretly loves Phil Lester. Phil Lester secretly loves Dan Howell. Dan Howell is bullied. Phil Lester is best friends with Dan's bully. Dan Howell wants to die. Phil Lester is too afraid to stop him.

"I'm sorry..." (trigger warning)

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.

Book 1 in the Grim Reaper trilogy! Dan's just like any other person out in the world. Except he's a Reaper, someone who decides whether or not a person should die. He's had this job for as long as he remembers, and is never bothered by what he does. But when he is sent to judge Phil Lester, his life becomes harder and he has to decide between his feelings for the boy and his role in the world.

********************SPOILER ALERT********************** DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T READ MEMORIES, IT WILL RUIN THE ENDING BIG TIME!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Eleven years after the loss of his one true love, Jace Levett, Kai decides it's finally time to return home to Reading to get the answers and closure he needs before he can move on with his life. In order to find new happiness and new love. However, returning home turns out to be more than just a hello, goodbye. What Kai finds there could potentially break down what is left of his fragile self. What will he do when faced with new challenges, new life-changing decisions to make, and the shock of a life time? Read on to find out...

a series of phan short-stories and one-shots, each story has a summary at the beginning so you know what you're getting yourself into --- credit for the cover goes to @xsillytilly

Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excitement he never could have imagined. Through the good and the bad, Dan's new life thrills him and leaves him wondering ...what does it mean to truly be alive? pairs: Phan and KickTheStickz tw: language, sexual content, abuse, depression, death, suicide, medication, drugs, parents, alcohol ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM DAN'S POV Note: This fic features no main character death, only mentions of death.