Why me? Why did I have to be part of that 2% of people with eating disorders? Why did I have to be juggled between treatment centers and doctors during the "best" years of my life? This is a memoir about eating disorders, yes, but not about having on, about where life leaves you afterwards.

As the eating disorder ate, she slowly began to die

❝you need to stop before you dissolve away completely❞ Book 3. eating disorder noun plural noun: eating disorders any of a range of psychological disorders characterized by abnormal or disturbed eating habits (such as anorexia nervosa). All Rights Reserved: © SykesorStyles ©

I guess you could say I'm taking the easy way out, but do I care? no. I look in the mirror and its a demon to me. All I see is a fat, ugly, worthless, shity girl. There isn't anything pretty about my body. My goal is to get smaller than a size 3 in pants. I'm almost there and i'm slowly getting happier. I go 2 days without eating and i'm fine but after the 3rd day everyone seems to notice so I force down a sandwich. I hate eating! It honestly scares me to see food on my plate. I can't be fat....I just can't be....

"So, you're the wedding planner?" he asked. @brethebrat

living with a male during my college career was the last thing on my list. + lowercase intended highest rank: fanfiction #8

"that mouth of yours is too dirty for that pretty face." + lowercase intended highest rank: fanfiction #6

"i'm your boss, not your friend." + lowercase intended highest rank: fanfiction #4

"His eyes - oh, God, his eyes - were an entirely different story. Staring into his eyes was like staring into the summer sky just before the sunset came, before the yellow, pink, and purple clouds came to fog up your vision. They were the definition of a cloudless sky, a clear river seen running through a wide field of grass, that one, blue, sparkling diamond that stood out more than any other in a goldmine. Shining like the stars and as light as a feather, they tricked you into a strange sense of security, a state that one would be foolish to leave intentionally. Everything about his eyes was passionate, beautiful, and enticing, anything a man could ever ask for. I wanted more of his eyes, more of him." :D Thanks for checking this out! Awesome cover photo by someone who goes by the name Shuploc on Instagram - please feel free to check them out!