ramblings of an overthinker

(A personal piece chosen to be in the top 10 for the Mind Over Matter Contest) Please don't hesitate to view my other works as well as request a cover from my cover book! :) The world thrives on pain. It is never about the happy ending, the prize, reward or the success. Life is about the journey. How we got there, what we had to endure. It's about the pain we all feel. The pain that pushes us forward but can also throw us so far back in our progress. At least, that's how I see it. You can't have happiness without sadness or success without failure. I thought my life was perfect, glorious, spotless. I was content with myself and the future that I was producing. That was all before everything changed. I became tired, confused, lonely and the only thing I could truly blame was my own head, my own thoughts. I had to learn the true meaning of being myself and how to want to live again. The thoughts in my head, constantly manipulating me, insulting me, tearing me apart slowly and fading out all of my originality, were relentless. This 500 word piece shows my struggle, my failure, my regret but also, describes my success, my future, and my happiness. I could not be where I am now without this hardship, without learning how to make the voices hush.

Maybe checking really isn't that bad after all. Contest submission for To The Bone by Netflix. Copyright © 2017 by SmokingxDaisies

{Winning entry for ChickLit's #MindOverMatter Contest 2017} rip·tide /ˈriptīd/ noun a strong current caused by tidal flow in confined areas such as inlets and presenting a hazard to swimmers and boaters. I am confined within the inlet of my brain. But I will not get lost in the riptide of my mind. ~My entry for Wattpad's Mind Over Matter Contest~

It will all become silent if you just stop listening. A sample contest submission for To The Bone by Netflix.

Completing everything on that list was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Not because I lost you, but because I had to learn how to love myself. [commissioned entry for the To The Bone short story contest]

I've struggled with body image issues since middle school, and during my freshman year of college I developed a pretty severe eating disorder. I lived in denial for months by telling myself that it was "nothing serious," just something I was doing to make myself feel special, or for the sake of having a dramatic secret. By participating in this campaign by the new Netflix series "To the Bone," I'm honored to share how I came to terms with my mental illness for what it really was, and I hope to reach girls who might be telling themselves something similar.

❝ the saddest thing about betrayal, is that it doesn't come from your enemies. ❞ ➳ by maddyy19 ➳ all rights reserved ➳ © copyright 2017 this is my entry for the #MindOverMatter contest. this is just one example of what i have been through, and how I have overcome my struggles. [ IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING WITH DEPRESSION OR THOUGHTS OF SELF HARM, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME AT ANY TIME. THROUGH MESSAGING ME ON WATTPAD, I WILL ALWAYS ANSWER. YOU CAN ALSO CALL A SPECIAL HOTLINE FOR TEENS THROUGH ADULTS THAT STRUGGLE, 1-800-273-8255. THEY ARE AVAILABLE 24 HOURS A DAY. ALSO, IF YOU KNOW OF SOMEONE WHO IS STRUGGLING, DON'T STAND BY. GET HELP. ADVISE A COUNSELOR OR THIER PARENTS/GUARDIANS. EVERY LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND EVERY LIFE MATTERS ]

What do you see when you look in the mirror? Do you see someone beautiful, or do you see what I used to see?

anx·i·e·ty aNGˈzīədē noun a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. -entry for the mind over matter contest-