|| Philophobia. Its name comes from two Greek roots, "philo" meaning love and "phobia" meaning fear of. The fear of love. || "I think i was 9 or 10. And i would watch from the stairs and-and the concept of getting close to anyone...it petrifies me." "Why?" "Because I never want to be vulnerable." His voice became colder. "I never want to be taken advantage of." "Who says everyone will?" The man retaliated. "I like my own tent. I don't want people to come inside and mess everything up." "But what if someone climbed into your tent and cleaned it up for you?" He asked again." xx

Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

"say my name, dan howell"

swiggity sway these blokes are gayy.

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excitement he never could have imagined. Through the good and the bad, Dan's new life thrills him and leaves him wondering ...what does it mean to truly be alive? pairs: Phan and KickTheStickz tw: language, sexual content, abuse, depression, death, suicide, medication, drugs, parents, alcohol ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM DAN'S POV Note: This fic features no main character death, only mentions of death.

Dan is a boy that is bisexual, he currently goes to University. But he sees a boy.. named Phil. He can't help but feel a connection. When, Dan came out to his mother she didn't accept him. Dan, leaving his house crying has to live in University. Phil, sees this hopeless boy. And saves him. WARNING: includes; self harm, attempts to suicide, smut, and bad language HEY ER STOP BULLYING ME PLEASE; DONT READ THIS BOOK

Once upon a time, in a land far away, the destiny of a great kingdom rests on the shoulders of a young boy. His name? Dan. He wasn't a powerful sorcerer. He wasn't a skilled warrior. He wasn't in line for the throne. He was just a boy. But only he could break the prince's curse. Lies are told. Secrets are kept. Mistakes are made. And a dragon lurks in the ominous future. // thank you @undecidedone123 for the beautiful cover!! Go give their profile a looksie!!//

Dan has a crush on his idol, Phil. He wishes he could have a chance with him. He wishes he could have a chance with anyone, except that he has a condition making it hard to control his emotions, leading to random outbursts that he gets, A LOT. So how could anyone ever fall for him? ((triggers of self harm and suicidal thought))