So close to breaking. She's so close. . She can't escape her thoughts. She only has her older brother left, the only thing that gives her hope. How much longer can she take it? Then it happens. That night. Everything is messed up. Everything. Will she give it all up? Or will someone save her just in time? What happenes when she ends up adopted by the one and only Dan and Phil? **TRIGGER WARNING** Contains eating disorders, self harm, suicide attempts, suicidal thoughts, depression, substance abuse, strong language, boyXboy, and much fluff. Please do not read if you may be triggered by these things. Also, if you need someone to talk to just private message me anytime :)

Young love is a lot more than just chemicals inside your head, it's a lot more than just having a petty crush on a hot guy that sits in front of you, young love is the start of emotions; the beginning of learning how to love. Might be a lil cringe as I never intended for this to become my first full on phanfiction, regardless I hope you enjoy.

[pastel dan + punk phil] [warning that this is probably the most terrible written piece you've ever read.] dan howell, a man who wore lilac sweaters and liked coffee as much as he needed to breathe. phil lester, a man with too many tattoos and blue in his hair, with too many things that seemed dangerous about him. one night under the city lights changed everything they believed. pastel dan/punk phil au / around 2015 [highest rank: #601 in dan]

HI!!!! so if you happen to read this, it means you're amazing (; so I don't think there's any trigger warning except for action, guns, weapons, and language, plus some eventual sex (if I don't be a pussy and put it off :p) ~~ Phil loves his best friend more than anything. Not only as a friend, but he has a lot of feelings for Dan. Dan has a girlfriend though, sadly, a girl he fell in love with and wants to live with forever. She starts to act strangely though, as they both come to find you can't judge a book by its cover ~~ if you at least try to read this, I declare you sexy :)

Phil was always a girly boy. He loved playing with Barbies and wearing pink. Even though his mom assured him it was perfectly normal, he sensed something was different. One day, a boy appeared on the other side of Phil's fence, sitting by a tree and drawing in his notebook. Phil's mom told him this was their new neighbor, and Phil found him intriguing. Boys had always been a mystery to Phil, even though he was one himself. When Phil talked to the brunet boy, he became tongue-tied and blushed, yet he couldn't help but watch him through a small hole in the fence. In just a few days, they grew closer, developing trust and perhaps even liking each other. But they were just kids, with big expectations and a different outlook on reality. This is a story about coming out, teenage drama, and two boys who live on opposite sides of a big wooden fence. (teenage Phan)

Dan Howell is a new student at the most prestigious preparatory school in England. Phil Lester is the bad boy, often referred to as The Boy From The North. No one knows much about him except that. Dan falls head over heels for Phil even though people say to stay away from him. Dan tries to befriend Phil, but Phil pushes him away while also bullying Dan for being different. Will Phil ever open up and be nice? Or will Dan's world come crashing down?

Dan and Phil are the best of friends, but they both have a secret, the same secret. The more they hold it in the bigger the secret gets, how long will it take until the secret unfolds and will the world ever agree? Story by me, do not copy without permission

Dan is sick and Phil is suffering - so what the hell are they supposed to do now?

the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

It all started with that kiss, that moment and that passion when Dan became lost and Phil was clueless but both in love. The story of a skinny love that slowly becomes into something more and at the same time something less. *Note* Depression, suicide, self-harm and things like this will be mentioned a few times in this phan fiction and it shouldn't be triggering in any way but if it is, I apologize in advanced! Also, I wrote this a while ago now and my writing, grammar and spelling weren't the best so please excuse that. Enjoy!