"because as you know all too well, my dear phil, i sometimes want you to just drop dead." "ah, but you see, the feeling is mutual, howell." |serialkiller!phil x depressed!dan| |lowercase intended|

"you kind of remind me of stars; you only shine at night when no one is watching." (lower case intended // trigger warning)

It all started with that kiss, that moment and that passion when Dan became lost and Phil was clueless but both in love. The story of a skinny love that slowly becomes into something more and at the same time something less. *Note* Depression, suicide, self-harm and things like this will be mentioned a few times in this phan fiction and it shouldn't be triggering in any way but if it is, I apologize in advanced! Also, I wrote this a while ago now and my writing, grammar and spelling weren't the best so please excuse that. Enjoy!

{Sequel to Before You Leave} ❝After I left, there was so many things that hit me and that I realized. One of those things was that I missed you.❞

❝Remember that first time we hugged at the train station? I remember seeing your face light up and I hugged you for so long, I didn't want to let go because for once, I felt complete. But that was before you left.❞

Dan is a dancer, but it's his best kept secret. Moving to a new college results in new friends, new hobbies and a new outlook in life; but what does it really mean to be human? A series of strange and seemingly unconnected events unfold that all seem to link back to Dan's mysterious new boyfriend. etcetc phan with kickthestickz This story carries some warnings, however they're p much all spoilers except non-graphic violence and injury on one occasion, and non-described minor character death. No major character death and no self harm. Please message me if you think you'll need to know the TWs! To avoid spoilers, you can give me a list of things you don't want to read for whatever reason and I'll let you know if they're in the fic or not :)

No one ever knew Phil Lester, But now they all know his ass. * When a revealing photo of Phil finds it's way online it starts spreading and eventually catches the eye of his best friend, Dan. TW: abusive relationships [SLOW UPDATES IM SORRY]

This is the first phanfic of my 'Stalker Series' - 1st phanfic : I'm Not A Stalker (completed) 2nd phanfic: Be My Stalker (completed) 3rd phanfic: I'm Your Stalker (completed) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dan Howell is a young teenager, he has many thoughts and many questions about the world and life. He spends every night fighting a exstestential crisis and then going onto the wonderful place known as the internet. One day (after watching a SMOSH video) he came across a boy called AmazingPhil, and after clicking on the black and white video labelled 'Phil's Video Blog' he knew that he fell in love. So then it happened. Dan became obssesed with this British, side fringed stranger online that he only ever heard or seen by a simple video that got uploaded whenever. With his obsession Dan dove down trying to find anything to help him contact his love. Until he found a email address...

It's 2017. Adrian is 18 and going to university in London. Because his brother (Dan) and his flatmate (Phil) live in London, near enough to his university, Adrian is going to stay with them. Adrian is still mad at Dan for the fuss several years back, but doesn't want to have a dorm so... Yeah. He plans to be all reclusive etc. I don't really know much else haha. We'll see what unfolds! A story (unfinished) about Adrian Howell and stuff. It's inspired by another fiction I've read (maysierox's story). This is a work of fiction and I respect everyone's privacy. Dan and Phil have (so far) denied Phan, and while I do ship them I also respect that, please do too! <3 (Also, please don't go poking into real Adrian's life ☺) UPDATE: this story is on hold for a bit :} UPDATE: three years later i just want to say that this is the worst thing i've ever made and it's just,, so cringy. if u want to see the slightly less cringy stuff i make now dm for my art tumblr. k bye.

CURRENTLY UNDER MAJOR EDITING. I realize that a lot of things don't make sense so I'm gonna fix them I do not own Dan, Phil, or any characters in this book. Only the idea belongs to me Punk! Phil x Pastel! Dan Dan is the quiet boy in the back of the room. He loves bright colored clothing, dressing 'girly', and flower crowns. Phil is the guy who helped Dan when he got shoved into the mud. He's the exact opposite of Dan. Peircings, tattoo sleeves, black shirts, pants, combat, motercycle riding 'punk'.