NOT MINE!!! I don't own this story; all credit goes to the original author SoloChaos on ao3 Trigger warning: suicide/sexual abuse/mature content Make sure you have some tissues....

To start this off, I am deeply in love with my best friend. My best friend is Johnnie Guilbert. I never was a guy to fall in love so quickly. But whenever I look at his blue eyes, his skinny frame, his perfectness; I get a certain feeling I cannot explain. My love for Johnnie will probably kill me silently, I feel as if I'm his protector. Johnnie, maybe you'll read this soon, or maybe not? Can Kohnnie be real? Can I be yours some day?