- won first place in the summer 2015 x reader fanfiction awards - You feel like your life is one big existential crisis. You can't get a job, your landlord is an asshole (to put it lightly), and your mum is incredibly overprotective. You feel lost... until you meet HIM. (featuring end of 2014 - early 2016 Dan) *UNDER SEVERE EDITING - MAY NOT MAKE SENSE* *** incredibly cliché, read at own risk. occasional swearing (censored) and mentions of mature themes. one scene of abuse. enjoy! *** ©phangirlingweirdo

4 years have gone by since those magical nights with my love, Dan Howell. The group still remains together, Dan, Phil, Kian, Jeremy, Jordan, Eden, Julia and I are all still as close as we were when we were 18. Not all of us went to college after graduation. Dan moved in with Phil so he could focus more on his You Tube. He had so many subscribers! I was proud of him, but we were separated most of the time when I went off to film school with Eden, Kian, and Julia. However, this was my last year and I promised that I would move in with Dan as soon as I graduated. But as my birthday comes, Dan purposes to me, but just as I think everything is going to be all right... it turns, terribly wrong.