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I stepped into school and I see them my best friend(Megan) and her boyfrind(Jamie). Just the thought of your best friends boyfriend is supposed to be "he is all hers" and "he isnt cute at all". But my thoughts were "wow what is it like to be his" or "he is really hot", never have I not thought this even before they started going out. The worest problem he is my best friend too or bro and sis as he says. The pain I feel I have to keep hidden other wise she will hate me forever and he will never talk to me again. I just hope they never find out, instead of going to my normal seat by them I got to my other best friends; Cassey,Kade, Austy(girl), Hannah, Max, and Jane. They all knew about how I felt about him and how I feel about the whole world. If your wondering I think the only solution to problems is death. ________________________________________Jen is in love with Jamie but the one catch is he is her best friends boyfriend and they are in love. What happens when he finds out and what happens when someone close likes her best friend.