PHAN ~A broken boy on the verge of suicide. ~A ray of sunshine with a not-so perfect home life. When two unlikely forces collide, there worlds are brought together in a series of painful, blissful, joyful, and memorable moments, all significant in the journey to how they found love within reach. WARNING: There are references to self harm/eating disorders in this book, also some graphic depictions of violence. If you are not comfortable with these subjects, do not read. UPDATE (5/10/17): I started writing this a while back and it's super cringe rn but if I continue it then I may start editing the previous chapters :)

They didn't know they were going around in circles until they were right back where they started. //Phan *this was my first story it is so bad, if you hate it try something else pls omg*

"If you came here looking to lose your will to live, then you've found the right place." "It feels like home." //Phan

|| Philophobia. Its name comes from two Greek roots, "philo" meaning love and "phobia" meaning fear of. The fear of love. || "I think i was 9 or 10. And i would watch from the stairs and-and the concept of getting close to anyone...it petrifies me." "Why?" "Because I never want to be vulnerable." His voice became colder. "I never want to be taken advantage of." "Who says everyone will?" The man retaliated. "I like my own tent. I don't want people to come inside and mess everything up." "But what if someone climbed into your tent and cleaned it up for you?" He asked again." xx

phil's entirely normal. dan's entirely not.

In which a boy with pastel pink flower crowns and a boy with a dark attitude become friends to prove everyone wrong *pastel!artist!phil *punk!musician!dan

On a certain day of the year every teen who has recently turned sixteen is required to get a unique tattoo imprinted on their wrist. Whoever has the same symbol as you on their wrist is your soulmate. Dan Howell and Phil Lester, the most opposite people imaginable end up with the same symbol. But the real question is, is their love a mistake? Just an error in the strictly heterosexual matching system?

"tired blue boy walks my way, holding a girl's hand, that basic bitch leaves finally, now i can steal her man" - trigger warnings: depression, physical and emotional abuse, excessive drinking, and suicidal thoughts other warnings: possible smut - based on melanie martinez's pacify her, all rights to her.

Rewritten Version! Phil ran away from home, but on his first evening in London, he's run over by a car and finds himself in the hospital. The only thing he remembers is some small fragments from when he was run over, and when someone found him. Especially one detail has stuck with him from the accident a pair of beautiful hazel coloured eyes. How do Phil find his memory again? And what does he do when he is all alone in London without any trace of where he comes from?

Love and fear. How can one person feel these emotions for the same person? Well apparently Dan Howell could. When he moved in, a particular boy caught his attention. Their relationship quickly grew and so did their love for each other.