"The less you care, the happier you are." He turned to face me, his blue eyes dull with traces of betrayal. "No. The less you care, the lonelier you are." - In a world where people have the ability to flip an emotions switch, many people lack feelings and sympathy in general- including Dan Howell after a tragedy strikes and he can't take it. However, he meets Phil Lester, the outgoing flirt with too big of a heart to handle. The two become close, and Dan soon realizes that even with his switch off, he can't deny that Phil is slowly reaching to turn it back on, and Dan can't seem to push his hand away.

It all started with that kiss, that moment and that passion when Dan became lost and Phil was clueless but both in love. The story of a skinny love that slowly becomes into something more and at the same time something less. *Note* Depression, suicide, self-harm and things like this will be mentioned a few times in this phan fiction and it shouldn't be triggering in any way but if it is, I apologize in advanced! Also, I wrote this a while ago now and my writing, grammar and spelling weren't the best so please excuse that. Enjoy!

memories are like an escape. [ phan ]

" my name's blurry face and I care what you think. " Dan Howell has an unknown condition where he cannot see faces - no matter what he wears or does - they are always a blur. The doctors nicknamed it 'blurry face', and there's absolutely nothing they can do about it; Dan will have to live without faces. That is, until he meets Phil Lester - the 'bad boy' of Dan's new school - who's face is strangely visible to Dan; much to Dan's wonder and Phil's distaste.

Dan Howell. A teenage boy with depression, self harm, and a very rare disease of butterfingers. Also has an obsession with llamas. Phil Lester. A teenage boy with eyes that could make the moon jealous, has an amazing talent for making people smile when they have gone through the roughest crap ever. Also has an obsession with house plants. Both of them? They love to make Youtube videos. Dan is all over the place. Phil is all in order. He helps any one that needs it. What happens when Dan meets Phil? Does a new relationship blossom? Can Phil fix Dan? But what if Phil has secrets of his own? Is this shell of his fake? READ TO FIND OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dan wanted to be pretty (TW: death/eating disorders/depression) Also im not good at covers if you wanna make me one thats great (@phan-tabulousphil on tumblr) Sorry for the promo but I need Current cover by Danspillow

Dan Howell is a good boy. He spends most of his time studying and does all his homework. Phil Lester is a bad boy. He's failed nearly every class, and sleeps with a different person nearly every night. Only once Phil makes a bet and a school project is assigned do their paths cross. This story will contain smut and angst, trust me. I'm not claiming phan is real and I do now own Dan or Phil. I own a wattpad and bad grammar; that is all.

"Do you know those cartoons where people have a little devil and a little angel on their shoulder?" "Yeah?" "That's exactly what I have." ~ trigger warning(s): mentions of; pills, panic attacks, good/bad personas <3

I'm not indecisive