It was an accident, but Phil blames himself. Dan's gone, but Phil still feels him there. What did it matter if Dan was dead? Nothing.... Nothing mattered anymore.... (Warnings: MC death, depression, attempted self-harm, alcohol and drinking, very angsty, I cried while rereading this so you may cry too) I have no idea what possessed me to write this. I am so sorry.

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

After one day at his new school, Dan finds himself falling for Phil, the cute guy in his English class. Will they be good match like the sky and the sea, or will their relationship always be platonic?

Dan's the new kid in school, expelled from his last for threatening a teacher. Dan's family hoping this will be a new start, don't know their son's biggest secret. Will Dan have the confidence to tell his father about the way he feels? Or will he continue to be the rebellious teenager he is? Phil is completely the opposite from Dan, never gets in trouble, quiet and doesn't have any friends. Trying to double depression and his grades, how will he deal with a new kid in his class? Will all his secrets be revealed? And will the bullying stop? Dan crosses Phil on his first day, and things don't start in the best way. Phil doesn't need help, but Dan is adamant he helps the boy through his years at college. What will happen when things turn upside-down for the both of them? Warnings: mentions of selfharm, bullying, mild swearing, sexual references and boy boy pairings. Not recommended for people under the age of 13. ©chloemitzu

Dan howell is starting at a new school, he is abused and raped by his own father, Phil lester is the so called emo fag, people call him that because someone told everyone he's gay, so he gets brutally beaten everyday but pretends as if nothing happens, what happens when they met? Started: August 30th Ended: January 18th

cover by AmazingSkylar - TRIGGER WARNING - automutilation and attempted suicide.